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Dear friends,

I have moved my blog but this blog will not be deleted.
If you are interested, please ask me for the link.

With love,
Ally

Another diagnosis

This time was from my family doctor. The illness will follow me forever… due to my half impaired ear was infected by airborne virus.

Luckily it is not any harmful cell growing in my brain. Thank god. I was so worried for the past few days.

Shall go temple pray one day~ long time never pray le…

 

Our time spending together getting lesser… from everyday to thrice a week to twice a week to once a week to a few minutes a week… gosh… why why why…

In the morning, I felt so giddy and no energy to drag myself out from my bed yet I can't get through my dad as his phone was spoiled. I contacted other 3 people and luckily Elicia woke up, replied and she's free. She meet me at my house and accompanied me to doctor. Initially wanted to go to my family doctor but there was no cab available. So we headed to my auntie's clinic.

I got a diagnose from doctor saying that I suffered from inner ear imbalance… which caused by a virus and infected my ear. That's why I fainted 2 times in a day~ need to rest more and do work at slower pace… if not recover need to go a brain scan. Gosh. I have no time to do slowly man… I have so many things to do yet so little time and now still need to do at a slower pace… dots. Sounded so serious but I think not that serious la. Hope I can get well tomorrow! I want my Christmas Ave and Christmas!!!

Thank you, Elicia. ♥

It's not wrong to give it all for love; it's not wrong to love a person so much. Sometimes, the only thing wrong is the person you chose to love…

I don't know what keeps me persevere on when we know something is wrong and we can't make it feel right. We don't want to give up. Please save us. Please make his life better. Minimise all obstacles for him. Improve my immature brain.

I don't want/need any comments. Just let my mind settled by itself. I'll be better if I could analyse it myself as I am the only person who knows the situation best.

Moral support is what I needed most.

Left my Japanese test and PROJECTS to term break!

I am too overloaded that I actually forgot when my project mates are meeting… OMG. Faint.

I have no time to bother about my personal life. Such as her arrival and r/s... hmmm… not forgetting I have many issues unsolved. Though we are one but not like before. Because we are all stress about work? Or just tired of…? I don't want to care so much anymore. When times come, the answer will reveal itself… tired of being initiative for now. I just want to concentrate on my projects now. Other things? SHOO~!

I am going to change my blog url as soon as I'm free to make a new one. I want to lead a new life. This blog filled too much of my sorrows which I will never want to read back. I want & need a change.

♥
I have it in reality but I don't feel like I'm in it.

人性很丑陋

I thought this time will be different but not…

I'm really tired.

Tired of taking all those attitudes. Tired of acting like an idiot. Tired of listening your negative comments on me. If I am that bad, why still together? You are not that good either.

PHOBIA
IRRITATING
ANNOYING

All these words came out from your mouth! Why are we still together if you think that way?

You never know how hurt I am when I heard those words from you. Please put yourself in my shoe.

When I need entertainments to relax myself; my friends keep me company but you.

When I crave for some food; my friends will try their best to buy me the food but you.

When I want to go to some place(s); my friends will try their best to accompany me there but you.

When I am stressed about my work; my friends gave me their support and encouragements but you.

When I feel troubled; my friends unconditionally lend me their listening ears and time but you.

When I need company; my friends never leave me alone but...

 

Sometimes, I don't know whether I am in it and I don't know why I am doing all that to someone who doesn't really response.

My heart is tired.