What am I doing?

I don't know what happened to me.

My mind doesn't tally with my heart.

I am experiencing about to lose something.
Why am I so stubborn?
I can't speak up what my heart wants.

Why I stand so strong at my own stand?
Why can't I show some sympathy?
Why I so bad?
This is horribly terrible.

When did I become so rebellious?

Am I stressed-up?
Am I suffering from depression?

I am so not like myself.

Where have Ming Xuan gone to?

I know… that I need a break. Desperately need it!
Away from homework and projects.
Away from arguing with him.
Away from everything that adds on to my condition now.

I feel like I couldn't catch up my own pace already.
I am rushing to do many things within a short period.

However, I need to endure for another 2 weeks plus for my term break.

I'm so afraid that I can't wait.
Work is piling up.
Desperately need a break.

Previously, I know when and how to relax myself but not now.
What had happened to me?
Mind corruption.

I am so tired!!!

='(

All about ALLY!

I think I am going crazy.

ARRGHS!

I am a stubborn person.
I am a serious person.
But
I am a cheerful person.

I share jokes, listen to jokes but don't joke often.
I care a lot about dining etiquette.

I hate sharing everything that concerns hygiene.
I hate to be dependent.
I hate friends calling me by my full name.

Don't talk to me when I look moody. Most probably I will reply a lousy attitude.
Don't talk to me when I am concentrating. I will ignore you.
Don't touch any parts of me. I need sense of security.

 

♥

I love my family.
I love my girlfriends.
I love my friends.

I've got 2 new love, aiai(naughty) and a little of maya (look so fierce).

感动

Thank you, Burger.
For the dinner which was cooked by you.
It was very tasty.
I'm so touch. Really. =)

Fly away~

Arrghs! I don like my bl0g skin!
is like… arrghs!
I just cant find a satisfied skin and I cant make a good skin myself!

Hmmm… don’t know since when my house became so quiet. So quiet than before. My brother and I hadn’t spoken to each other for almost 2 months and I don’t know what happened. Every week when I visit my grandparents alone, they would definitely ask “your brother lehh?” I can only tell them lies. I don’t want them to know. Neither my dad want nor me. My brother will blow up further. But how many lies can I tell? I have no more lies to tell them already. I feel so guilty.

Where are the usual smiles?
Where is our laughter?
What goes wrong 2 months ago?
Why things turned out like this?

Hmmm…………………. =’(

my 45th friday of 2008 post

It has been a hectic week. Projects are coming up, time is getting lesser and my kongfu panda is coming his way to find me already!

Hmmm… and I’m worried too.

My dearest girlfriend,
Speedy recovery ok?! All my happiness lies on your hands. Hahaa. Joking. Please take care of yourself. We will always be there for you! We are just a call away. Call us and we will become your superwomen to rescue you! hahaha. Stupid. Don’t eat too much unhealthy food. Drink more plain water!!! Told you how many times! Chomp chomp waiting for you. Punggol nasi lemark waiting for you. Egg tou-hua waiting for you. Many many good food waiting to serve to you! Faster recover and we can fly there…!
Muackkkkk! <3

Hmmm… to someone out there...
Sorry, I know you are suffering.
I am not any better.
Just wait until the day we promised.
Either you get to know the reason for this promise or a rejection.

Learn to cherish before you lose them