Less than 7hours
and I miss everything so much.
I wonder if he also thinks the same way.
I don't think so, uh.
I shouldn't felt like this
or shouldn't act this way.
There goes this phrase again,
time heals everything…
My heart is aching every minute, every second.
I feel like talking to someone
but I don't know who to talk to and don't what to talk about.
Hmmm… never mind.
I go lie on bed
maybe will make me feel better.
Don't feel like replying any sms or answering any calls tonight.
Why fortune-teller can see everything?
Again, this year, she was right.
One month is up and I know what I want.
No, is not what I want.
It tells me the result instead of me deciding.
Ting once said keeps yourself happy and keep smiling when you are sad is a skill and knowledge.
Ironically, the sadness will last longer.
I endured and controlled my tears from dropping for about 3 hours.
It was a horribly torture to me.
I was on my way home taking bus 86,
memories flew through my mind;
him and I quarrelling at the most front seats.
Then the bus went pass Mad Jack,
I remembered him promised me to bring me there.
Not only today, every day I take the bus and it went pass Mad Jack it reminds me of those memories.
我说好的幸福
在不知不觉之中，
输给了缘分
It was fated to let me met the fortune-teller.
It was fated to let go.
认命吧
都注定好了
不是吗？
多么的不舍得
多么的不开心
多么的伤心
哭再多也没有用
没有了就是没有了
笑一个！
You can have me if…
I don't know what happened to me.
My mind doesn't tally with my heart.
I am experiencing about to lose something.
Why am I so stubborn?
I can't speak up what my heart wants.
Why I stand so strong at my own stand?
Why can't I show some sympathy?
Why I so bad?
This is horribly terrible.
When did I become so rebellious?
Am I stressed-up?
Am I suffering from depression?
I am so not like myself.
Where have Ming Xuan gone to?
I know… that I need a break. Desperately need it!
Away from homework and projects.
Away from arguing with him.
Away from everything that adds on to my condition now.
I feel like I couldn't catch up my own pace already.
I am rushing to do many things within a short period.
However, I need to endure for another 2 weeks plus for my term break.
I'm so afraid that I can't wait.
Work is piling up.
Desperately need a break.
Previously, I know when and how to relax myself but not now.
What had happened to me?
Mind corruption.
I am so tired!!!
='(
I think I am going crazy.
ARRGHS!
I am a stubborn person.
I am a serious person.
But
I am a cheerful person.
I share jokes, listen to jokes but don't joke often.
I care a lot about dining etiquette.
I hate sharing everything that concerns hygiene.
I hate to be dependent.
I hate friends calling me by my full name.
Don't talk to me when I look moody. Most probably I will reply a lousy attitude.
Don't talk to me when I am concentrating. I will ignore you.
Don't touch any parts of me. I need sense of security.
♥
I love my family.
I love my girlfriends.
I love my friends.
I've got 2 new love, aiai(naughty) and a little of maya (look so fierce).
