LUCKLESS ALLY...

Life… sigh.

ALLY GOT A LUCKLESS ROMANCE.
ALLY GOT A LUCKLESS LIFE.
ALLY IS LUCKLESS FOR EVERYTHING…

Ally… oh Ally… your life is a joke.
Ally… oh Ally… your life is a drama.
Ally… oh Ally… I don’t like your life now.

When can Ally get better? Become lucky?
Ally doesn’t like number 3…

You, please don’t find trouble for me anymore.
You, can you stay away from me?
You, can you don’t lie anymore?
You, can you live better without me?
You, can you don’t find me anymore?
You, don’t make me cry anymore.
You, don’t make my life tough.
You, please… let me go………………

You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you…………………………….!

So many of you!!!
troublesSs, please go off!
Shoo! Shoo! Shoo!
My life doesn’t welcome you.

my 44th SUNDAY in 2008

It was bored in the day time but it went sooooo happening in the night.

Ting, eli, ger, ting’s sis and me brought aiai and maya for a walk around ger’s house. Hahaa. Usual, I afraid of maya but I not scared of aiai anymore. Hahaha. Maybe maya too big le. Too bad. Small dogs are preferred.

We saw a well-trained husky. Wahh… the husky is super obedient! She even went for several competition lahh! The owner taught ger how to bring up a husky and train them. Hahaa. MAYA JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT! =) hahaha.

Hmmm… I’m kind of in love with dogs now. =X

Anyway, after that my dad fetches me for supper. It had been about 10 years we last had our supper together outside. I thought it was perfect at first but after our supper, things turn out so badly.

SINGAPORE, I LOVE YOU!

My daddy got a FINE for illegal parking. What the… omg. The place don’t even have a CARPARK, where and how all the car owners park their car?! Dad and I spent less than $10 in the foodcourt and we need to feed the govt $100…!

After collected so many $100, please build a big carpark nearby. We’ll greatly appreciate your effortssssss.

Got to go.
Bye.

moooooooooooddddd XD

Hmmm… I’m not been blogging quite some time. But no worry, I will still blog. Hahaa.

Many things happening around me ever since the school vacation started until now.
People leaving…
People entering…

Everyone is changing. Everyone life is changing every second every minute. Tick-tac… tick-tac… tick-tac… Tick-tac… time is moving… we are breathing… breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out… everyone speed is so fast… people walking on the streets… cars are speeding… leaves on trees are swaying… wind is blowing… birds are flying place to place to find new shelters… clouds are moving away for the rain… and now, is autumn. In Singapore is raining season… I also in semester 2 already… time flies… I’m back in carefree life too.

It’s going to be end of October; there goes ¾ of my memories in 2008…

你的勇气在哪里？

I have yet to post our memories.
I have yet to talk about our happiness.
I have yet to enjoy the love from you.
I have yet to talk heart to heart with you.
I have yet to love you till I die.
I have yet to hug you tight.
I have yet to hold your hands tight.
I have yet to go zoo with you.
I have yet to go Genting with you.
I have yet to go Italy with you.
I have yet to fulfill my promise to you.
I have yet to take care of you when you are sick.
I have yet to hear all truth from you.
I have yet to wear our ring.
I have yet to receive my repaired handphone strip.
. . . . . . . . . . etc.
We have yet to fulfill our plans......

No matter how much efforts I put in, you are going to return me in this way… through your *someone* return me this kind of treatment.

Though I felt being abandoned but I will not fall this time.

I will not fall.

Not fall

Though the return I gotten was horribly an insult and terribly disappointed.

I WILL NOT FALL SO EASILY!

I will show that I’m not the lousy girl she saw in her eyes.

I never look down on you before.
If I ever look down on you, I already left you long ago.
I will definitely wait if you are in NS.
If I won’t wait, I won’t be with you.
I never regret getting a joker boyfriend.
If I ever regret, similarly, I already left.

How much pain you brought to me I pulled it through and determined to stay with you. But you gave up everything you have on hand just because of some comments by *someone* then, you choose to get out.

歌曲：勇气
歌手：梁静茹

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Hmmm… no matter what I say or do now doesn’t matter to you now.
我的爱已经没有意义了
我。。。 会把那份不被肯定的爱放在我心里的最深处，永远都不把它解开。

Lastly, I want to tell you here is…
Everything from me to you is real.
25th April 2008, that phrase, I said it once to you only if you still remember and it’s impossible to hear from me again.

Goodbye my almost lover.

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hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Still crying?
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hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Still crying?
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hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 words to conclude; LET GO…
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ahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaa!
=’(((((((((

Each time I read the blog the feeling never change… it still makes me feel… HURT, SUCKS, FUCK OFF and LUCKLESS. It had been about 3 months already, the feeling still so strong and like never disappears before. I always thought I can buck up and do it better but it seems so hard. I’m challenging myself? Or I just want to show that I can? Or am I don’t want to let go?

The mistake he made never erase or fade off my mind. It was a disastrous nightmare. A nightmare which is seems repeatedly appearing in my dreams. Though the stormy days had over but it has turn cloudy only. When can I see the Sun? My heart and mind doesn’t tally. I want to BELIEVE. But my mind dominant the belief and make me think the other way.

I’m so scared. I’m afraid to go through it again. And the fear… makes me so weak to fight.
Hmmm… what to do?

I’m falling deeper each day. Who/what can save me?
Trust myself? Or trust my eyes? Or trust my feeling? Or trust him?

Frankly speaking, I’m lost.

s0me F1 PicturesSs...

I worked with chefs during this F1 event...

it's sooooooooo tiring!!!

i think the food also have our sweat inside....

hahaa! =X

hope not.

hahaa.

byebye F1.

muacks!