Ally is Me

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2009-12-30T14:13:00.001+08:00

Dear friends,

I have moved my blog but this blog will not be deleted.
If you are interested, please ask me for the link.

With love,
Ally

Another diagnosis

2009-12-27T13:48:00.001+08:00

This time was from my family doctor. The illness will follow me forever… due to my half impaired ear was infected by airborne virus.

Luckily it is not any harmful cell growing in my brain. Thank god. I was so worried for the past few days.

Shall go temple pray one day~ long time never pray le…

Our time spending together getting lesser… from everyday to thrice a week to twice a week to once a week to a few minutes a week… gosh… why why why…

2009-12-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

In the morning, I felt so giddy and no energy to drag myself out from my bed yet I can't get through my dad as his phone was spoiled. I contacted other 3 people and luckily Elicia woke up, replied and she's free. She meet me at my house and accompanied me to doctor. Initially wanted to go to my family doctor but there was no cab available. So we headed to my auntie's clinic.

I got a diagnose from doctor saying that I suffered from inner ear imbalance… which caused by a virus and infected my ear. That's why I fainted 2 times in a day~ need to rest more and do work at slower pace… if not recover need to go a brain scan. Gosh. I have no time to do slowly man… I have so many things to do yet so little time and now still need to do at a slower pace… dots. Sounded so serious but I think not that serious la. Hope I can get well tomorrow! I want my Christmas Ave and Christmas!!!

Thank you, Elicia. ♥

It's not wrong to give it all for love; it's not wrong to love a person so much. Sometimes, the only thing wrong is the person you chose to love…

2009-12-13T15:41:00.001+08:00

I don't know what keeps me persevere on when we know something is wrong and we can't make it feel right. We don't want to give up. Please save us. Please make his life better. Minimise all obstacles for him. Improve my immature brain.

I don't want/need any comments. Just let my mind settled by itself. I'll be better if I could analyse it myself as I am the only person who knows the situation best.

Moral support is what I needed most.

2009-12-07T23:09:00.001+08:00

Left my Japanese test and PROJECTS to term break!

I am too overloaded that I actually forgot when my project mates are meeting… OMG. Faint.

I have no time to bother about my personal life. Such as her arrival and r/s... hmmm… not forgetting I have many issues unsolved. Though we are one but not like before. Because we are all stress about work? Or just tired of…? I don't want to care so much anymore. When times come, the answer will reveal itself… tired of being initiative for now. I just want to concentrate on my projects now. Other things? SHOO~!

I am going to change my blog url as soon as I'm free to make a new one. I want to lead a new life. This blog filled too much of my sorrows which I will never want to read back. I want & need a change.

♥
I have it in reality but I don't feel like I'm in it.

人性很丑陋

2009-12-05T21:54:00.001+08:00

I thought this time will be different but not…

I'm really tired.

Tired of taking all those attitudes. Tired of acting like an idiot. Tired of listening your negative comments on me. If I am that bad, why still together? You are not that good either.

PHOBIA
IRRITATING
ANNOYING

All these words came out from your mouth! Why are we still together if you think that way?

You never know how hurt I am when I heard those words from you. Please put yourself in my shoe.

2009-12-05T17:22:00.001+08:00

When I need entertainments to relax myself; my friends keep me company but you.

When I crave for some food; my friends will try their best to buy me the food but you.

When I want to go to some place(s); my friends will try their best to accompany me there but you.

When I am stressed about my work; my friends gave me their support and encouragements but you.

When I feel troubled; my friends unconditionally lend me their listening ears and time but you.

When I need company; my friends never leave me alone but...

Sometimes, I don't know whether I am in it and I don't know why I am doing all that to someone who doesn't really response.

My heart is tired.

2009-11-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

I have no mood for anything for today… in fact the entire sucky November 2009. Worse month in 2009.

I don't like seeing people separating… it involve a lot of emotions and need very long time to recover… bless them and myself.

I have not started my revision on Supply Chain and not done all my tutorials… I feel so shit now… I have been trying to ask people out since weekdays but everyone is so busy with their personal life.

And "some idiot" can just throw girlfriend at home and enjoy the whole weekend himself. Perhaps, he is showing some dissatisfaction but still… 女朋友是来疼的，不是花瓶或傀儡！心情不好不要对她发脾气或给脸色，臭人！

All men are the same regardless of age.

2009-11-28T01:33:00.001+08:00

What will you do when you feel moody?
Will you ignore your love ones who always care for you?

I already have one. I don't need another one. It will only further irritate me, seriously.

Somebody once said, talks things out, clear all your doubts, sharing, understanding and communicate are essential… it's easy to say it but it is hard to do. In my opinion, since you know the theory, you must prove it that it is workable rather than just a theory. Then, what's the point of knowing the theory when you don't use it?!

"Jun Zi Yi Yan, Si Ma Nan Zhui"

Well, nowadays people especially men, just plainly talk without action. I have seen it many times.

I guess it's time for a heart to heart talk. Though I can predict the outcome but I really don't wish to waste my time.

I am going for reality not a dream.

Family always gives me the strongest and greatest support. They will always with me no matter what happens and my beloved friends too.

Update.

2009-11-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

Feel like setting my blog into private blog but… I have my own reason(s) for not doing so.

I just passed my FTT last Friday and I will get my PDL tomorrow if time allows. I really want get my driving license as soon as possible so that I can relax a little and fully concentrate on studies.

This semester will be a disaster for me. The tests today made my heart sunk to the bottom already. Sadded. And both papers carry 15% each. Wah lao~ emo to max. ARRRGHS! Never in my poly life have I felt like that before. Sigh. I don't wish to waste my effort during TEP!

And I think I need to seek a doctor for my face. Gosh~ it's getting worse. Hate my weak and sensitive skin! So itchy~

2009-11-08T17:13:00.001+08:00

You can be very good in helping to solve and giving advises to others whenever they encounter problems but you can never solve your own problems.

For instance, a doctor can never treat himself/herself.

There will always a need to involve a 3^rd party to provide some guides you.

怕怕~！

2009-10-26T22:03:00.001+08:00

2 days to go…

Out of so many people why choose me?! Sigh.

Talk to a group of less than 60 people, I'm alright. But talk to a big group of 100-200 over people, I'm very scared and nervous.

我的出体验即将来临！

I WANT TO JOIN!

2009-10-24T02:09:00.001+08:00

OMG… There was a Flash Mob at Raffles Place ytd afternoon…!

I so wannnnnna join the group!

2009-10-17T11:37:00.002+08:00

拼了命也要忍着的心。。。

再多的想念，多么的想拥有，都要压抑着

一分一毫的贪念都不能存在

时时刻刻都要为你着想，都要妥协

我的努力与用心，我希望你能看到，感受到。。。

装着什么都不知道就不会去想也不会太在意了。。。。。。

2009-10-02T16:32:00.001+08:00

SIGH~

Reports presentations report presentations report presentations… AGAIN!

Actually I'm alright with reports and presentations now.

I'm troubled over…

Why they aren't given a second chance? They are important to me. What I am today, they involve more than anyone else except my family.

Strangers are given a second chance. But why they aren't? Because they are my friends so have to be stricter? No…

I changed my style of living to compromise… I don't know if anyone notices…

There's a scar on me, a scar that appears suddenly since don't know when… A friend told me that mean compromise… when everything is solved/balanced off, the scar will fade away… but it had been almost more than a month and the scar is still so obvious… I'm seeing it every day.

I'm stressed.

Every time when I see that scar, I have the urge to be rebellious but I controlled.

Everything seems so different.

2009-09-26T23:28:00.001+08:00

I'm currently in love with cars!

I don't used to look at cars when they drive pass me. Although I still unsure of all the brands, models and whatsoever but still I will constantly look at cars on roads! Omg.

I am now recalling my days when I worked for F1 last year. It was the toughest job I ever had yet a really memorable and enjoyable one. The non-stop working… the busyness in the central kitchen… the race cars sound… the people I worked with… the people I met… the handsome F1 racer whom I saw… the Porsche race… the time spent there… the smell on my hair that I couldn't get rid for a week… and a lot a lot… gosh I'm missing them all and I promise that I will never forget every single details.

Unfortunately, I didn't get to work for F1 this year. Arrrrrrrrghhhhhsss...!

I miss…

2009-08-22T01:35:00.001+08:00

PS: one said; a couple breaks up/divorced because they know each other too well, a couple get together/married because they don't understand each other.

Having your own principles is no problem. However, some things in life, you have to give way to your principles so that those things can be completed.

2009-08-14T02:00:00.001+08:00

I am a good listener but I am not a good debater or a good speaker.

I won't ask for extra time to learn because time never waits neither do I debate which is right/wrong. Furthermore, I will contribute my comments when I think that the theory can be improved otherwise, I will keep silent, learn and follow.

Cause' I believe actions are impactful than words of mouth.

A sentence that enlightens me, it's from - my primary school teacher (forgotten his name), Lawrence and Dzikri.

They once said, "We are learning every day."

P.S. Sorry "primary school teacher", now then I understand.

LEARNING is what everyone does in their everyday lives.
LEARNING FROM MISTAKES is what everyone should do in order to become a better person.

P.S. Minimise the little imperfections in you by learning from every day/mistakes to become a better person in future.

29 days to Shanghai

2009-08-08T14:47:00.001+08:00

Researching on Shanghai tourist attractions…

Dearest Ivy,

2009-08-08T14:41:00.001+08:00

GET WELL SOON!
I will cook your favourite chicken soup for you.

And and and…

SHANGHAI here we come~~~

With love,
Mummy

BIMBO

2009-07-29T13:36:00.001+08:00

I was viewing XiaXue's blog and I saw this BORED IN BIKINI videos. It was OMG! If anyone of you doesn't know what BIMBO is, you might want to watch these videos. I can't figure out why they are doing those things to make themselves look stupid la… are they really bored to that extend?! Gosh…

2009-07-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

Madness.

My thumb drive also infected with virus. %$#@#$%#...! I fucking TL now…

Now scanning for virus… fucking school printing shop computer contain all sorts of virus…

Fuckup.

2009-07-19T23:09:00.001+08:00

Hey all, my lappy is hospitalized. All thanks to the helpdesk guy in NYP SBM! Arrghs! Initially, my lappy was just infected with virus and I just want him to reformat for me yet he wants me to DIY.

Ended up, my lappy auto lock and keep prompting error! Then, the second helpdesk guy, he is nicer la… but he can't solve my problem as he said:
"sorry, I can't help you. This is my first time seeing this."

OMG… I really don't know what to do with these helpdesk assistants! Aren't they supposed to help us on our PC problems?! Why am I receiving this kind of services?! Gosh… pathetic.

Well, I left my lappy with them as the second helpdesk guy promised to save my lappy. Hopefully he meant what he said. I am going to collect my lappy right after my presentation tml 1130am.

Bye.

Stressssssssss

2009-07-16T09:55:00.001+08:00

I am now alone in school access lab. ALONE. JUST THE LAB AND ME. Nobody else is inside. My group and I suppose to meet up for PM project this morning at 9am. But… no one turn up yet. Now it's about 9:50am already. Pathetic. One of my group mates are chionging down from home now (-.-") …

Well, I am really stressed by PM and CS projects which due in less than 6days time and I am still not finish up them. Gantt chart, precedence table, risk matrix, monitor and control, executive summary, conclusion, appendices, references, ppt, role play… really stress me up! My group mates are falling sick one by one and I am so worried! CANNOT FALL SICK! IT'S OUR LAST LAP! Let's endure and pull it through together! No sick no sick.

Nowadays, my emotions are rather unstable. I get frustrated easily and I cry almost every night before I turn in. I need comfort. Sigh. I need listening hear from my closest. Let me ease my stress by behaving like a small kid. It is so not good to grow up.

Random:

Term of the day from business dictionary
COPY
General: Duplicate or reproduced version of an original work.

Good News again…

2009-07-08T00:21:00.001+08:00

WOOTS!

2 GOOD NEWS today!

First: Darling reporting to his new company tomorrow YEAH! XD
JIA YOU! JIA YOU~! woohoo~

Second: got good grade for BM0086 ICA 1 =)

Hehee. Hope luck lady will stay with us for longer period. *Bless us*

ANY VOLUNTARY ACTIVITIES TO INTRO ME?
I want to help the low income families. Fund raising activity, send necessities to their house, walkaton or something?

School days…

2009-07-07T00:24:00.001+08:00

A typical SBM student's school life will always fill with the below...

Projects
Tutorials Homeworks
Revisions
Exams
Tests
Lectures

My life now is full packed with PROJECTS! 1 project… 2 projects… 3 projects… to complete within a week. Oh my… researches… analysis... reports… presentations…

疯掉!

I hate this part… when holiday approaching… projects and tests come first… stress will come in next… make me feel that holiday never come… oh my tian~

I WANT HOLIDAY!
HOLIDAY!
HOLIDAY!

My term break yet to come… extended holiday for the sake of H1N1 case, all TEP students were not involved! =S Never mind… sigh~

AnywaysSssSs…
GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good for you all and Better for me!
I scored…
A for SCMC
A for Personal Selling Report
A for TEP Summary Report
hahaha. This is just for the first stopover.

HAPPPPIE~~~ XD

Some of my precious thoughts…

2009-07-01T16:09:00.001+08:00

*Yawns*

Counting from my classical schedule
today is week 2, Wednesday.

22 more days to go to end these boring and lifeless days of mine…

I am so not fine. I was hoping to make new friends and wanting to make new friends but everyone is so cold~ gosh…

Hey, A SMILE DOESN'T COST YOU AN EXTRA DOLLAR.

I need the crayon kid cartoon to relax myself since this classic modules started…

动感超人! 动感风波~!!!

Aim and target from next lesson onwards: Make new friends! Talk to as many classmates as possible!

---

I want the SIMS 3… =(

I want to improve my make up skill and I want to see myself getting into professional course by 2011…

I want to get rid of my pimple scar by July…

2009-07-01T00:01:00.001+08:00

Hey hey!

Sze min sze min… I now updating le… hahahaa. Because of you… I update lehh… hahaha!

UPDATED!!! =)

Classic

2009-06-27T21:22:00.001+08:00

Hihii.

Now in school I'm an emo kid. G0sh~

MSC with those been to MSC TEP people
HR with HR TEP people
SCMC wanted to interact with other people also no chance lo…

Super unfriendly class. Ahhhh… endure! 4 weeks!
3 weeks to go!!!!

ALLY, YOU CAN DO IT!

Extraordinary Lecturer!

2009-06-16T02:54:00.001+08:00

There is one lecturer of mine. He is now not in Singapore. Ironically, I just received his SMS to send regards to my class. Ya, I replied. After that, second SMS came in;

"Ok. Tks. Need u to help me to feed my fish. But I think my room is locked as the rest of my roommates are on leave. Maybe only XXX is around. The fish food is found on my table. Just a bit will do. Tks!"

I was like (-_-") what the… HAHAHAHAHA!!! But so super duper cute lahhh! I will miss him and will remember him for life.

Cutest teacher goes to you!

2009-06-15T00:58:00.001+08:00

WOOT!

I'm back to blog!

I was really very busy for the past few 10 days or so… rushing for project closure. Wahahaa. But now… everything comes to an end. Left 5 days more to be part of SCMC 不舍得~ =( Mr Alan Fong so good to us lo… Mr Ong Wee Min also lo... (>.<)

Keke. I'm going into study module soon le… siao liao. I sure K.O one…

动敢超人~

动敢风波~!!!

2009-06-03T22:50:00.001+08:00

AGAIN, THAT SICKENING SPOILED BRAT!

Totally spoiled my day!

Please do let that fellow know that there is someone in this world hated this spoiled brat so much and the someone is me. Yes I, ALLY SEAH hated you! =) Please forever don't talk to me and stay away from me. If possible, don't even let me see your face. I will appreciate greatly! Thanks!

2009-05-24T14:35:00.003+08:00

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I have this really bad feeling on that recently, I hope that it will not going to be real.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

I can trust a person fully but never let me know that you lie to me because I will never forgive you.

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

2009-05-23T02:11:00.001+08:00

Gosh… I feel so tired!

I need to get 12 hours of sleep to replenish my enthusiasm!!!

2009-05-18T01:56:00.001+08:00

My Shopping List

Hard disk
-SMTH-
Handphone pouch
Makeup Shop Foundation
Pierre Cardin –SMTH-
SPF 15/30 Face/Body Lotion
Cotton On shoe and slipper
Perfume
Dorothy Perkins Skirt
Nude colour eye shadow
Black Jeans
Club Marc Blazer
Formal Wear
Contact Lens
Wallet

Saving money in process…

2009-05-14T23:41:00.002+08:00

Project deadlines are drawing nearer and there are so many things undone. STRESSED!

STRESSED
STRESSED
STRESSED

It's too early to ask for a break now but seriously, I need a break right now!

I WANT TO GO BEACH, ESPLANADE, MERLION PARK OR ANY PLACES WITH BEAUTIFUL ARTS, STARS, SEA WAVES, WIND AND FRESH AIR!!! I F***ING WANT TO GO AND RELAX MYSELF AND AWAY FROM HUGE CROWD!

My motivation is getting lesser when stress level is increasing…

Appreciation

2009-05-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

Thank you Ivy and Jo for the Mother's Day gift and card! Hehee. So sweet of you…

I never regret adopted both of you from the rubbish bins outside the Church and Temple. SO CUTE LAH!

Mummy give you huggies [pampers] Hahahaha! v(^.^)v

Father's Day is next, your Daddy have a gift too? Hahaha! =X

Full Time and Part Time Promoters needed… LOOK HERE!!!

2009-05-07T00:37:00.005+08:00

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Please state the following in your resume:
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3rd May 2009

2009-05-04T01:36:00.001+08:00

Woohoo… I went morning jog with Shu Yun. Erm… my last jogging was… last year? Hahahaa! =X but anyway… I feel refreshing after an exercise. I should try to pick up this lifestyle back. Seriously, I lost my determination last year but I want to gain it back and lead a healthy lifestyle!!!

Hehee… I'm going hiking soon! Yeah Yeah~ about 9km – 15km… woohoo~ I'm looking forward to that day!!!

2009-05-01T14:33:00.001+08:00

It's been so long that we've last argued. That was in lower secondary. It's understood that that time we were too young and gullible. So now, I wonder what triggered this to be happening. A new person enters into our circle that you all cannot adapt? You guys don't know the new person well? I've changed or we all have changed? Too stress about schoolwork? Missing someone too much? I'm thinking so hard to figure out what went wrong among the 4 of us. Or we are being exposed to different kinds of environments/people? Or things we experiencing changes our mindset?

I know the post was an encouragement. But what is the triggering factor? What leads to today? I want to know so much. Where went wrong? Where the problem is lies? Who is responsible for all these? Because of the club issue?

We need to get it solve, seriously.

Wishing us all the best and good luck as well as don't want to get involved in anything regarding all of us can solve all the problems? No, it doesn't. Ironically, it worsens the situation.

I understand that we all just started to go through another tougher and busier year in school. Leaving things unsolved doesn't help on our friendship. Avoiding; adds on to the problems.

Sorry isn't the hardest word to say if we have done something wrong.

You want a change in your life. Am I right?
But don't forget, we always there, for you.
What are friends for? What you treating us as?
We don't treat you as an entertainer. We share all our jokes, our tears, our fears and our happiness. We overcome many problems together remember? Where are those courage gone to? Where are our loves? We aren't each other strongest pillar?

I accept who my friends are because I don't want to lose any.
Changing my friends' personality? I'm not that powerful or impactful to do all these. If a person willing to change, he/she will initiate to change themselves.

2009-04-28T00:32:00.001+08:00

Human do change with time

I'm sure you guys have the experience. For it would bear no fruit, when it requires 2 hands to clap. So one does not.

Well, my world is changing as a hurricane just went by. Will my world be reconstruct or let other cities, towns and buildings to move in?
If they are going to reconstruct, both you and me will have to change the building style and features. And most importantly, the interior designs of the building have to remain some old memories and also to create a fresh look to it.

To Whom It May Concern, I hope it can be reconstructed and the lot is reserve for only you for a certain period. Because human change with time.

2009-04-25T15:15:00.001+08:00

Time for a post…

First week of attachment was a bit slag but still need to prepare presentation every day. 
I took up a president post in SCM Centre. Many administration things need to be done and tidy up with my V.P. Hmm, I wasn't doing well at first and I became tensed. However, I am glad that Darling is always with me as he will make sure that I live my every day happily and with no worries. Well, he have helped me on my attachment workloads when I cannot cope on it.  Thanks, Darling. <3

Well, the attachment mates are fun and friendly. I believe the SCM Centre can be more happening when we know each other better. Hmm, I will start to make it happen by contributing the most noise pollution in the centre ya?  Hahahaa! Hope we work well together and have a marvellous attachment experience. =)

Alright, school work aside.

Everyone knows of the power of friends,
The terrific result, when everything blends.
When people have friends, they don't stand alone;
Friends always help, when you face the unknown.
Friends give you courage to face problems untold,
So the love of a friend can help make you bold.
They can help you to live a much richer life,
So your everyday living will be less filled with strife.

The power of friends, 
I cannot sense it recently.
I am stressed by your actions and words.
Those have put me in a dilemma.
Is there a miscommunication between us?
Is it time for a friendship test by god?
The feeling of being in dilemma is really not good.

It's him.
The man I am waiting for.
The man I need tenderness from.
The man I want to live with forever.
The man I never want to give up on.
The man I will share all my happiness and sorrows.
The man I will kiss.
The man I will hug.
The man I will breathe with.
The man I will give my love and care to.
He, the man I will love as always.

2009-04-16T21:28:00.001+08:00

Sigh~ School is starting soon… and I'll be in year 2.
I got into SCM Class 3. Omg. I'm separated from all my friends. Sob sob.
I will be going for attachments in semester 1.

First attachment: SCM Centre (HURRAY!)
Second attachment: CTIC (What the heck is that?! -_-")

AnywaysSs… I hope both attachments will let me gain many experiences and make more friends. I am kind of look forward to it. =)

I miss BM0814 peeps.

♠♠♠

I left not many days to spend with him as my holiday is ending soon. I guess this is one of the fulfilling holidays I ever had and I will miss everything.

♠♠♠

Woohoo~ I shall stop here and proceed to my SIMS 2.

Byeeee.

2009-04-07T04:21:00.001+08:00

A relationship starts because of two parties' mutual chemistry and commitment.
A problem arises because of two parties.
If a relationship ends, that's when the problems cannot solve within two parties.
When a relationship ends, there will be hurt and pain.
It is the ritual.

For your info, I will never join in the ending of the above ritual.
And, thanks girl for your support and it's greatly appreciated.

<3EVA<3
Thank you for always accompany me by my side...
Hello Kitty LIMITED EDITION Stamp Album…
The surprise Birthday Gift (I'm so touched!)…
You are great!
Your understanding, care and love are greatly appreciated.

Another
Happy Moment;
6April…

We watched Mall Cop. My expectation for this movie was much higher than what they screened and it actually disappointed me a little. Nevertheless, it was another sweet memory of ours.
Mall Cop – Our FIRST Movie

Then, we headed to White Sands for dinner at Lerk Thai. The food was extremely delicious as it was dine with him. Today is the day when he knows 1901 Hotdog (His FIRST Time). Hahaa. Stupid. =X Heyhey… next, he thought of going to the top of a building at Changi to view the beautiful scenery at Changi. However, we didn't go up and we headed to Changi Beach Park (Our FIRST Time there). During the short stay at the beach, we could hardly see anyone but aeroplanes ascending into the sky. The planes were so near to us that I could almost grab them. Then, he lay on my lap and he fell asleep while I massage his eyebrow. He said the massage was comfy. Also, I enjoyed looking at him asleep. He is so cute!

Signing off,
mingxuan

Girlfriends <3

2009-04-05T08:18:00.001+08:00

Though it was a tough year in 2008 but we made it through. We've shared our laughter, tears and fears. What make us now, are all the experiences we have been through. There are a lot of unspoken things among us but we can always feel/thinking what each other are feeling/thinking. Hmmm… I have so much so much to say to you all but I don't know where to start with. We are all the same kind; who don't speak up the gratitude and ya, one of our ways are through blog.

Ting, we will support on your decision and we only a call away from you. Be Strong. Thanks for your understanding; I really appreciate it very much.
Eli and Mei, thanks for always by my side whenever I need you girls. Be Happy always.

With lots of LOVE,
Xuan

The One

2009-04-05T02:17:00.001+08:00

Though many don't understand/don't know us but I want all my friends and family to know that I am happy and so so so 幸福 right now. Girls, I know what you all are worrying about but I am really happy now. Can you all feel it? The happiness in me right now is I never have it before; the feeling is like a first love. I feel the effort from him and I want to put in my effort too. Girls, I always remember all the mistakes we've made. We learnt from our mistakes and I know you all are reminding me not to repeat them.

Girls, we care so much for each other. I love you all. However, I hope you all would try to understand my situation. I know it's unbearable for you all at times but seriously, I am really happy being with him. I know it will be tough but I always believe 天下无难事只怕有心人 and 先苦后甜. I really hope that I can keep the relationship going and at the same time, I need your support. You would say I'm blinded by love and indeed love is blind. Especially ting and I are blinded by love right now but girls, use your heart and soul to feel me. Am I now suffering or am I living in happiness? Girls, let's put all negative thinking aside and I believe you all will give me your fullest support like how we support ting's decision too. Take your time to know him and you will understand him or rather both of us more.

We will always be each other strongest pillar;
Love Girlfriends Forever ("v")

2009-04-03T00:45:00.005+08:00

I feel very cold right now.

Don't know what happened to me. Things don't go smooth on 2 April.

Dad knows about something…
CO picking on me and agitating me…
I'm trying to do/explain but they just can't visualise and put them in my shoe…

What's wrong?!

The feeling… is so unbearable…

I want to help things out but things get worse.

Trust me; I'm trying hard to learn.

2009-03-31T00:10:00.001+08:00

My long waited event…
is drawing near…
but…
I'm not able to attend.
hmmm…

♠

You will lose something at the same time when you gain something

♠

Last night,
I dreamt of many things… and then I read up the dream guide book. It says that a new relationship is approaching; it will be a nice one but there will be many rivals.

Tata. =)

2009-03-28T16:54:00.001+08:00

It's a brand new day again. [Breathe in…breathe out…]

Reflect~
Reflect~~
Reflect~~~

Yes, I'm still reflecting on many things...

However, I know what I should do or rather work on some things.

Yesterday was a history, tomorrow is a mystery; today is a gift.
Appreciate the gift and learn from the histories.

☻☼☺

Earth is dying. People, let us work together to save the Earth.
Please switch off all lights on
28^th March 2009,
2030hr – 2130hr.

☻☼☺

CAUTION!

Treasure it before you lose them.

2009-03-27T15:57:00.003+08:00

*yawn* I just wake up.

I feel terrible. I wanted to call someone to share about this but I scare I give them burden. I wanted to tell someone how terrible I am now. I tell myself not to cry but I couldn't overcome the sadness in me. Tears are shedding from my eyes.

I'm now listening to Richard Clayerman "Mariage D'Amour", the force of every key that the pianist played tells a little of my feeling. If the force of each key could change harder, it tells all my feeling right now.

I admit that I am weak so I armed myself with my fake armour.

ALLY need to be taken care of…

Hug is all I need; to let me know that you care for me.

Unspoken

2009-03-27T04:56:00.004+08:00

I've been reading the SMSes, viewing through the photos and thinking.

I got the hints you've dropped. However, it also confused me. Try making it clearer?

Sometimes my heart do melt because of small little thing you did or said to me. It's greatly appreciated and I'll remember always as well as placed inside my heart.

*my eyes are closing. I need to turn in already. Goodnight all.*

2009-03-23T20:24:00.002+08:00

I feel so shit now.

What am I doing sia…? F***

ALLY SEAH,
Forget it bah! OMFG!

- STAY CLEAR -

2009-03-20T09:16:00.005+08:00

Yawns!

I came back from camp on 18 March.

19 March, I ton over with Law. Promised Law to post this: Law's pants stained with "prawn juice". He said he finally can understand how a girl will feel if they got their mens stained on their skirt/pants. He was so paiseh and he covered his pants with his laptop bag then we faster hop into his car. wahahahaa!

2009-03-13T04:14:00.001+08:00

Ok. I'm really bored right now.

I just had a meeting with zjun, syan and vin. It's not all about camp but we were excited about the Hongkong trip in June 2009. Woohoo~ and some miscellaneous stuffs. My ever first camp designate as a camp commandant is coming in 2 days time! Well, I rather relax and I don't feel nervous. Hmmm… "Boat reach jetty auto straight" (in Chinese) hahaha… worry? For what? Hahahaa. Most importantly is to enjoy no matter what happens. Tsk.

Well, I am currently facing some minor problem in life. I have spoken to Dan and Law and both gave the same advises.
I was being taught TWO easy steps to live happily ever after:

Step 1: Block
Step 2: Delete
hmmm… it was first taught by Dan but don't know why, I able to think wider and not doing what he taught me to do. However, same thing taught by Law the very next day, I finally 看开 and able to execute the 2 steps.

"Don't let life control you; you control life"

☺☺☺

Seriously, I'm now a full time slacker and I am not actively seeking for a job. I am graduated from Diploma in Slacker
and Degree in Slacker. I am now considering taking Masters in Slacker in Professional Slacker School. HAHAHA! CRAPS!

I have been tonning out ever since holiday started.
Ton over friend's house…
Go spinning overnight…
La kopi…

Sometimes I was thinking, spending time with people whom you know can know them better. However, beware! During the long and lonely night time… anything will just happened. Joking! But no worries, that never happen to me. hahahha!

I feel like typing some more as I really have many to say. Well, I think not many people will finish reading such a long post. Wahahaha!

☺☺☺

You believe in fate or you will think it's coincidental?
Say the same things on the same time to the same person?
Having the same frequency?
Sharing the same personality/characteristics?
Like and dislike the same food?
Like and dislike same types of people?
Encountering almost the same situations?
Feel the same emotion at the same time?
Have common topic to talk about?
Hmmm… maybe I miss out some but… one or more from the above might happened to you or friends around you. But did anyone encounter all of the above towards the same person and its occurring almost every time when you both meet up? You would take it as fate or just coincidental?

Signing off,
mingxuan =)

Part Time Job Needed URGENTLY!

2009-03-06T05:10:00.001+08:00

I am super bored!

BORED
BORED
BORED
!!!!!!!!

I have been tonning over at Tristan's and Michelle's house with a group of jobless friends.
Movie Marathon
Playing Cards
Watching DVDs

Ohhhh my 天~

I tried my best looking for a job…

I called back my previous office…
Signed jobstreet.com…
contact recruit express…
call global hr…
asking around friends…

Arggghssss!
even the only hope
Lawrence also joining the frictional/cyclical unemployment now.

No Income = No Leisure = No Life

Even my newly bought LG Phone also throwing tantrum at me!
It just spoil suddenly and I bought it less than 3 WEEKS!
Pissed off~

Really looking forward
Ever first camp I organized
And it will be carry out by me and the Alumni
on 15 to 18 March

Yesterday Law and =} ton over at my house
tsk.
Playing FFS, Mass Conver, Pranking (awhile), Chat and Eat.

tsk tsk tsk
Slacker's life…
Slackest life I ever lived…

Remarks:
Some things are good to be left unknown than be known

BP Outings and Tonning over at Tristan house =)

2009-03-06T03:48:00.007+08:00

2009-02-27T02:49:00.001+08:00

Woohoo… I was reading my past entries. I realised my English improved a little when I first started blogging and then, it decline suddenly. Omg. Perhaps, my better English only use it for my O level exams. Once exams were over, forget everything! Hmmm… I think that's what everyone does. Hahaa!

Oh ya, before I post this entry, I was blogging about my outings with friends and uploading photos. I don't know what happen to me, I pressed "CTRL-ALT-DEL" "End Task" and shito! The window closed! All my effort gone to waste. Sadded. Nvm. I will post it as soon as possible. Woohoo~

Goodnight friends! =)

2009-02-24T04:06:00.005+08:00

Hmmm…

One say, women mood is like weather. They change it swiftly and suddenly.

I wish to post it privately but, unluckily, my blog isn't a private blog, wordpress or livejournal.

Towards DC, it's nice to know you. Really.
6 years ago, we are also friends just that you have forgotten everything about me. Ironically, I did not forget everything about you. Surprise?

Because, I was too gullible in the past but you enlightened me. You taught me how to do realistic planning for life and be decisive. So, why previously we stopped contacting each other? =) Because I am not decisive, you left me.

6 years later which is now,
Again, I know you back because of a mistake I made. I started off the cheeky ideas with you because of my boredom and loneliness. But it's really great to know you. Because you will be my listener and my entertainer and you never make a single complaint. I appreciated it. I've changed a lot right? hahaa.

I think you also don't remember what had happened 6 years ago. I am like a passer-by in your life, a stepping stone for you to grow up more.

This time, I choose to leave you.
It's because a friend make me realise that I was wrong. Partly, is because you have totally forgotten me and the joke we played are too much for me. 我玩不起

Maybe 6 years later we will restart the friendship again like what we did now. HAHA.

Stupid, it's impossible to restart again. How many 6 years can I/we waste? I left you by a very nonsensical way and confirm you will remember me maybe for life and never want to contact me back. So,
All the best! =)

ALLY 这次不同

2009-02-24T03:07:00.001+08:00

I want to change back to my old self.

The obedient girl I used to be…

I find myself is changing ever since that incident had happened.
I really don't like the present me
Cheeky and so out of mind
who is she?! Omg.

Vulgarities are coming out of my mouth so often now. Cheeky ideas running inside my mind whenever there are chances to misbehave.

ARRRRGGGGHHHHSSSS~
"乖" I need that!

Someone please change me please…..

I managed to stop one trouble I've created using a very extreme nonsensical method.
But I need to stop ALL!

Irritating bad mouth
Cheeky ideas

I want to go back to the innocent girl I used to be…

STOP PUMPING IN BAD INFLUENCES INTO MY LIFE.

*Apologies to DC. 我玩不起. 既然是"误会"让我们认识, 就让"误会"让我们结束我们的友谊.

“Woohoo” Happily Ever After…

2009-02-23T04:36:00.001+08:00

I'm addicted saying "Woohoo…" ever since exams ENDED!

Woohoo…!

Yesssss. I did go crazy after the exam.
woohoo.
I went to book a body treatment at Bioskin and I bought approximately $40 O2 Skin products and the renewed membership card.

Treatment… Body Lotion… Hand Cream… Body Mist… Rose Soap… 2 Body Foam… Cosmetic Equipments…

Wooooo… it's very cheap if purchase all these with their membership.

Wahhhhhh… I feel more relax

香香~

2009-02-20T02:15:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO…!!!

FINALLY…
IT'S APPROACHING…

Wahahahahaha…

Exam is ending in less than 16 hour's time!

2009-02-12T02:56:00.002+08:00

坏习惯
李玖哲

你爱的歌不再听了
谁在我心里哼

你爱的颜色我该忘的
偏偏又选了

我开始怀疑你没离开
否则太奇怪

睡觉
吃饭
从我的习惯
都证明你存在

你
是坏习惯
我戒不断
我的心不听使唤

我犯了又犯
像个笨蛋
这世界一片混乱

爱已走散
忘记太难
但会习惯

你的生日我不庆祝了
但我却还记得

你悲伤快乐我不参加了
却总还挂念着

坏习惯
戒不断
坏习惯

▬▓▓▓▓▓▬

I need to move on...
Please don't tell me anything regarding you read my blog.
Give me a space to breath to be myself to speak up
Never mention my blog to me anymore
If not, I will need to change my URL again
Don't knock at my door anymore
You came twice but we never meet
如果没有缘分,
就算是邻居也不会见面

2009-02-09T00:49:00.001+08:00

DO NOT DISTRUB!

I am not available
until 20 Feb 2009, 1800 hours

= Exam Period =

2009-02-04T21:46:00.001+08:00

What's wrong with me today?

The pasts kept flashing back in my mind
Even when I was asleep,
I dreamt of the pasts

The feeling of it was unbearable
`Loneliness

That day,
I heard a girl was grinning in the background
when you picked up the call
I was breathless and I hesitated
Then I speak

The call ended
A sudden flash back on the pasts
Until today

He did not edit his profile
why?
He sucks.

2009-02-03T02:51:00.001+08:00

It hurts me

How can you say those to me?

Are we still friends?
I don't know whether you mean it or not
I am hurt

Though you had a bad experience last year,
but, this is the a new year
things might change
unhappy pasts will not repeat
because I've learnt

I want to help you
I want to protect you
I want to make you shine as before
but you always keep a distance away from me

I know you felt it
That's why you 一时进
一时退
I know you know it
That's why you 惭愧
With me, will let you think of her
That's why you 残忍也不是慈悲

2009-01-28T02:07:00.001+08:00

Hmmm… I don't really like to go online recently.

I think I am kind of addicted………
I shall… stop it!

Seriously, I need to help myself.
Try to stop going online
maybe can delete the contact too?
No, I can't do it for now.
It will be similar to killing me.

A promise to myself
I shall not break it.

I would remain what I am
and concentrate on what a student should do

ALLY SEAH is a superwoman.

♥
like someone has said,
you and me are a kind
we need love
we feel lonely while others are enjoying
♥

Well, shan't think of that, Ally Seah
BE STRONG!

Okay~ I'm contradicting my sentences now…

I miss…
I miss…
I miss…
and I miss…

My stupidness caused me serious consequences
I… am in a deep shit now.

Gosh…No joke… I am in deep shit
now!

CANNOT ALLY SEAH!
THIS IS NOT YOU SUPPOSE TO BE…

Go back to your normal life……
Be a simple and normal girl…
Peaceful 19^th remember?

*cry*

What’s wrong with me?

2009-01-24T01:33:00.001+08:00

I think something goes wrong in my life

After clearing some of the projects,
I'm like exhausted.

We still left effective writing
and I left no more motivation to do

That's not the main issue

The issue is…

Don't tell you… hahahaa!

Goodnight all!

Hui Hui Yi Yi PERFECT WEDDING

2009-01-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

2009-01-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

ALLY's DAY!

19JANUARY2009

Two German children, six and seven, elope for Africa

2009-01-13T23:38:00.001+08:00

Two childhood sweethearts, aged six and seven, eloped from Hanover in northern Germany on New Year's Eve, determined to tie the knot under the African sun, police said Monday.

The pair identified as Mika and Anna-Lena "are very much in love and decided to get married in Africa where it is warm, taking with them as a witness Anna-Lena's little sister, aged five," police spokesman Holger Jureczko told AFP.

The idea for the romantic trip began when Mika told the two girls about his recent holiday in Italy, while their families celebrated New Year's Eve together. "From this, the children began to make plans for the future," Jureczko said.

As the first dawn of 2009 broke, the trio started to put these plans into action, packing all the essentials for the journey, including "sunglasses, swimming trunks, a lilo, summer clothes and provisions."

While their parents slept, they left their house in the suburbs of Hanover, walked a kilometre (two-thirds of a mile) up the road to a tram stop from where they took a tram for the central station.

Waiting for a train to the airport, they aroused the attention of a guard who contacted police.

Two officers managed to convince the young lovers that they would struggle to get to Africa without money or a plane ticket.

As a consolation, the children were given a special tour of the police headquarters at Hanover station where they were especially taken with the detention cells.

Their relieved parents picked them up from the station, the spokesman said, adding: "They can still put their plan into action at a later date."

The children are super cute and romantic lahhhh.
KAWAII~

2009-01-13T02:02:00.001+08:00

累累累
好累
好累
好累!!!

Today was the first time I sleep in lesson ever since poly started.
Super duper tired.
Finally, one project and one ICA down
but… still have some more to complete.

DO UNTIL YOU DROP
is this the management goal?
hahahaaa!

The feeling of doing projects after projects, tests after tests…
so….
so…………….
so……………………
so……………………………..
sucks!

Hmmm… AND! Another thing…

I am super blur lahh.
I have been talking to don't know who for quite some time
and I did not realize he isn't my classmate
kaos!
Some more I talked so many craps lah! >.<
SUPER PAISEHHHHHH!

How I realize I talk to the wrong person?
When he started to ask what projects I have on hand
KAOS KAOS KAOS!!!

And and and… is that person got the same nick as my classmate and he starts the conversation first. And and and… the stupid gong me still talk like nobody business when I don't even realize is not my classmate!

EMBARRASS LO!

Kk. I'll stop here. Another ICA tomorrow morning.
ALLY SEAH, GOOD LUCK! <33333333333333

Are you still thinking about your ex?

2009-01-09T16:41:00.001+08:00

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test104.aspx

Here is the analysis:

Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

温岚-傻瓜

2009-01-09T16:19:00.006+08:00

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

Personality Test

2009-01-09T03:47:00.001+08:00

5^th Posts for the day.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
ALLY: True

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
ALLY: True about what I'm looking for. I am attractive? I don't think so.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
ALLY: True

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
ALLY: Not really. Plenty of dates? WHERE?!

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
ALLY: True

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
ALLY: True

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
ALLY: True

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
ALLY: True but people just don't seems to accept in some ways.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
ALLY: REALLY True!

2009-01-09T03:20:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I want to heck care and just cry out
but I can't
Sometimes I want to be tell that I am not strong
but I can't
Sometimes I want to speak up my mind
but I can't
Sometimes I want some things
but I can't
SOMETIMES I JUST CAN'T GET WHAT I WANT

I want to try to be a follower
I don't want to carry anymore responsibilities

Family responsibilities…
School work…
Projects, I'm always the leader.
How I wish I can be just a member
and listen to the leader

Even in a relationship also a tough task
Making me carry so many responsibilities
But he always lived in his own world enjoying
Never comfort me
Never realise how much I need him
Never realise how much I care about him
and don't know me well
I put it down
Lessen my responsibilities
and I've learnt my lesson
Perhaps that status will not appear until I graduate from poly.

Why many people I knew make me take care of them?
I don't like it.

How I wish I can rely on someone
Trust him/her perfectly
Someone who knows me well
Someone who cares about me
Someone who loves me

Haiis…

Life, have 3 words to sum up…
It goes on…

KINDER CHOCOLATE!

2009-01-09T02:41:00.002+08:00

kinder surprise box

"HELLO!" long time no see!

CHILDHOOD!

yeah yeah! g0t the wonderful toys!

clubbing pictures

2009-01-09T02:28:00.002+08:00

Desmond n Ally

ting, ally, shawn

ting n ally

ting, mei, ally

ting, ally, mei

Some Batam Pictures

2009-01-09T02:06:00.002+08:00

tickets!

ME!

In the ferry "wavemaster"

the girls

The Mansion with billard room, spa room, karaoke room, bbq balcony, a big back yard with own fish pond, a big bungalow for 4 servants, super duper big crystal light in the middle of the mansion!

sprial stairs

backyard

bbq balcony

Restaurant

Food on the table

Approx $2 or less per stingray!

A&W as breakfast

Bom Bom car!

忍耐是有限度的

2009-01-04T22:18:00.001+08:00

If you cannot take in other people comments
THEN you are a failure

Nowadays, we don't see who have the hardest 拳头
we see who can endure the toughest times
and can do the best job, understand野人-HOOLIGAN-DUMB-FREAK-JERK-BASTARD-FUCKER

Talk face to face don't go rounds
You can say it out right on my face then I let you win
But don't blame me to do something to affect your results!

LOOK DOWN ON THIS KIND OF "烂人"

我对你的忍耐已到了极限
谢谢你

2009-01-04T02:32:00.001+08:00

Shout-out:

ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

I hate projects
I hate that I am 无厘头 about the projects
I hate that time is short
I hate it worse when people don't get what I said
I hate to repeat what I've said
I hate people who don't 适可而止

I am super tired
My brain is cracking
Body is aching all over

I hate these periods
when the exams are coming
the projects come in first
and it's in one shot
throw so many modules projects to us
and have to complete within a short period
TIRED! BRAIN FREEZE!

Bonus:
I really don't like that particular person
What I said is so hard to understand?
I feel like calling your parent
and ask them what the hell you are doing
I just can't understand what you trying to do/say
I super stress
can you just knn say clearly?
And you farking hell don't even understand ALL MY SMS!

That add-on to my limit
I am farking losing patient now!

2 options:
1) Say it clearly and end everything
2) Grow up! Improve your brain cells!
just help others to think a little more.
Don't think you are the only one who is living in this
WORLD!

I am also human
I also have feelings
I particularly have many emotions
don't play me out!
I will be super fark up
and it's reaching my limit now
do something before something happen…

Don't irritate me during this period
I super duper stress
I will lose patient and quarrel/scold anyone anytime

9 MARCH 2008!
Faster come!!!!!!!
I NEED BREAK!

JI TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-27T03:58:00.001+08:00

A loser will not be seen.
Loser meant not fated.

I wish I would be seen
But I know I'm not and I will never be.

Loser, am I?

What I want is just one glance from you
and I will be extremely satisfied.

I'm trying to remove all obstacles to go to you
and I just need you to know I am always there for you.

I think I'm crazy.

The Promise

2008-12-18T05:42:00.001+08:00

It's about 5am now and I cannot sleep.
I am now listening to Jay Chou - 给我一首歌的时间

I miss and I yearn to go back to the beautiful past I had.
though they were so short until that I hardly could remember all
but I always believe they will be back or someone may subsidies them.

A friend used to ask me "if you already promised your friends to go Batam
and a few days before you set off
you get to go USA with your family for free
and it's on the same day when you promised to go Batam
which one would you choose?"

Well, I chose Batam.
My friend asked me why
I said because going Batam is a promise
I cannot break my promise.

If I still live in the beautiful past,
I would have choose to go USA
because it's free.

But luck don't fall onto me
what I been through in the past
tells me that promise is important
you never know when is the last promise you can fulfill to your friends

Maybe next minute you can't see them
Maybe next hour you regret not to go with them
Maybe next day you forget them

I always remember that day…
I think it was a rainy day.
She's leaving me anytime
and she still bring me to a mall nearby my house
she said "I don't feel well" with a pale face
I kept quiet
she said "I promised you to bring you out today, I cannot break my promise" she coughed.
A few days later,
she left and I never get the chance to see her again in my life.

She taught me not to break any promise I made.
She taught me to cherish

I miss you.
I'm so afraid that one day I will forget how you look like.
I tried many ways to recall our memories.
but I still scared.
teach me, how can I not forget you?
please teach me…

The more people and things enter my life
the lesser I could remember you.
You know how I feeling right now?
How can you just left us like that?
I don't hate you
I blame myself

I have thing not yet tell you
I not yet tell you that I'm sorry.
I have not told you "I am sorry"
I not yet tell you…
not yet tell you…
not yet tell that…
I am sorry…

That day I went to the columbarium alone
I miss you so much so much…
I yearned to tell you the untold sentence
I regretted to believe you will not leave us
I regretted I don't know to cherish you

当你拥有他们时，觉得都是里所当然
可能还觉得他们很烦很吵
可是人往往等到失去了才懂得珍惜
太迟了，那人可能不在你身边了

I've lost one
and I learned to cherish the love ones I left

Previously, I had a boyfriend who always break promises
he never fulfil any of his promises he made to me
I would think of this woman I love most
and I tried to tell him how important a promise is to me
but he always thinks that I want a quarrel
and we dropped this topic
repeatedly, this thing happened for continuous 8 months

The last promise he made was
"Don't worry, I will keep you by my side no matter what my mum said"
I was happy at first
then, I received a sms a minute after "sorry, I am so stress. I cannot stand her. Let's end it."

Break promises after promises…
even keeping me by his side is so hard for him
I give up.

I told him I got another guy.
Let me be a bitch once
Even though it is a lie
I just want to stop you from entering my life again.

I need to talk to someone.
I know I need to tell someone about my things.
Who can I tell?
I don't know
Everyone seems so busy with their things
I only will give them burden

Even if I tell
who would remember it?
as well don't say right?

I need a warm and lasting hand to hold on…

I am not the girl you see in your eyes.
The stronger you are on the surface,
the weaker you are in your inner.

HELLO~~~

2008-12-15T00:57:00.003+08:00

hihii...
I'm back in Spore!!! =)

Hmmm... basically, its a new experience for me and maybe my friends too.

The hotel we stayed in...
The Mansion we went...
The shopping malls we went to...
The dinner we ate..
What we had for supper...
What we did during the long night...
The breakfast we had on second day...
The sports game...
The shopping mall we went...
The dinner we had...
And importantly, what I feel and saw about these 2 days...

Its so freaking widen my view on many things...

*Yawns... i'm so tired...

to be continue... goodnite. <3

2008-12-13T02:10:00.004+08:00

hihii...
I'm off to Batam at 1350hours, 13 Dec.
Go there to explore and have some exciting water/land activties.
Just a short break for my friends and I
and I am coming back on 14 Dec maybe around nightime.

Bon Voyage!

Roti Prata

2008-12-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

Oh My Tian!

Today I met one "roti prata" bus driver who is super duper RUDE!
the bus was so crowded la
Although I was listening to my mp3
but I can clearly hear the bus driver scolded me
"Your bag don't touch me!"
OMG! You think I want?! aRRghs!

I pay high price on transportation and yet received such a lousy attitude.

BUS PLATE 8277. BUS NUMBER 86.
This driver super duper rude.

If there is a next time, I will lodge a complaint already.

I really cannot tolerate rudeness especially when your duties are to serve customers/passengers.

Third 3rd

2008-12-05T18:40:00.001+08:00

Hmmm…

I am trying to clear up things that he gave me in my room
I realised…
I have 2 small pouches to clear only
and nothing else.

Don't stay when someone you love don't love you anymore.

Although my heart is utterly hurt
but I placed the love and memories deep down in my heart and will never bring it out again.

And…
I know your heart moved for a few minutes or seconds
you said that today you took off and wanted to go out with me
stop your lie
you have no schedule for work today!
You seemed to forget why I know so many of your things without you telling me.
Never mind, you will took it as I am scaring you but I'm not.

I'm sure that you are in the lan shop playing your DOTA during your off days
"DOTA is my life!"
isn't what you always told me and keep reminding me about?
In the past, you sacrificed me for your DOTA games
and sacrificed me to meet your friends whom you can see them every day.
Oh ya, and your recent new love
The PSP

Yes, I am ill-speaking about you to the world.
You are certainly a bad choice in many ways.

Say me heartless
Say me cruel
Say me ruthless
Say me cold-blooded
Say me stubborn
Yes, I am when you certainly said "Ya, my feeling faded for you"
I won't hesitant to let go

There are 4 essential things in this world that cannot be broken. They are Promise, Trust, Heart and Relation. Once they are broken, they don't make noise but PAIN a lot. And maybe cause other party to react.

To you, they are just nothing.
But I take them seriously.

Our number 4…

2008-12-05T00:06:00.001+08:00

I was sitting at the bus stop waiting for my bus 86.
I was listening to my mp3 and…
then, I wanted to check the time and I realised...
I was not wearing the couple watch of ours.
I threw it away yesterday.
Cruelly, heartlessly threw it away.

I rushed home and tried to find back the watch
it wasn't inside my bin anymore…
my dad had replaced a new plastic bag this morning.

Today, supposed to be our 9^th month
as usual, every month of this day, it rains.

I feel so weak now.

I don't feel like going home already
every corner of my house have traces of his shadow
especially my room…
I hate it so much now.

The hardest thing to me is to smile now…
the more I try to be happy the more I feel like crying.
Why is this happening to me?

I don't feel like going to school today
I don't want to face my friends
I don't want to talk
I don't want to smile
I don't want anyone to know anything
I don't want anyone to console me
being consoled make me feel so weak…
I just want to be alone

When he was in trouble,
I stand up for him.
When he need me,
I always be there for him.
When all his friends left him,
I accompanied him.
When everyone in this world think he is lying,
I choose to believe him.
When he say he want me,
I will never leave.
When he say he don't need me,
I will not stay.

The day that you gave up me for your mother I knew that's the end of us.
As luck doesn't fall onto you, something you needed most left you few days later.
You told me your life turned black, ruined and you left nothing.
I came back for you
I hold you
I accompanied you
I bring you out of your darkest period

Now, you got back almost everything
and you don't need me anymore.

You said I never auto message you
For once you told me "don't need to contact me. I will contact you when I done with my things"
that's the reason I didn't message you.

In addition,
I know you don't love me anymore.
When two people are in love,
you can feel whether he/she is with you.
This is another reason that I never message you.

Hardest thing to do when you are sad is to smile.

It is a will to hide yourself.

2008-12-03T21:05:00.001+08:00

Less than 7hours
and I miss everything so much.
I wonder if he also thinks the same way.

I don't think so, uh.

I shouldn't felt like this
or shouldn't act this way.

There goes this phrase again,
time heals everything…

My heart is aching every minute, every second.

I feel like talking to someone
but I don't know who to talk to and don't what to talk about.

Hmmm… never mind.
I go lie on bed
maybe will make me feel better.

Don't feel like replying any sms or answering any calls tonight.

today…

2008-12-03T20:03:00.001+08:00

Why fortune-teller can see everything?

Again, this year, she was right.
One month is up and I know what I want.
No, is not what I want.
It tells me the result instead of me deciding.

Ting once said keeps yourself happy and keep smiling when you are sad is a skill and knowledge.
Ironically, the sadness will last longer.
I endured and controlled my tears from dropping for about 3 hours.
It was a horribly torture to me.

I was on my way home taking bus 86,
memories flew through my mind;
him and I quarrelling at the most front seats.
Then the bus went pass Mad Jack,
I remembered him promised me to bring me there.
Not only today, every day I take the bus and it went pass Mad Jack it reminds me of those memories.

我说好的幸福
在不知不觉之中，
输给了缘分

It was fated to let me met the fortune-teller.
It was fated to let go.

认命吧
都注定好了
不是吗？

多么的不舍得
多么的不开心
多么的伤心
哭再多也没有用

没有了就是没有了

笑一个！

Time’s up!

2008-12-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

You can have me if…

You fulfil previous promises

The 6^th month promise
The 8^th month promise
The 9^th month promise
The school reopen promise
The 15 October promise
The promise made on 44^th week of 2008
The promise that you will never break your promises

You include me inside your schedules
You sing my favourite bedtime song for me

What am I doing?

2008-11-27T00:48:00.001+08:00

I don't know what happened to me.

My mind doesn't tally with my heart.

I am experiencing about to lose something.
Why am I so stubborn?
I can't speak up what my heart wants.

Why I stand so strong at my own stand?
Why can't I show some sympathy?
Why I so bad?
This is horribly terrible.

When did I become so rebellious?

Am I stressed-up?
Am I suffering from depression?

I am so not like myself.

Where have Ming Xuan gone to?

I know… that I need a break. Desperately need it!
Away from homework and projects.
Away from arguing with him.
Away from everything that adds on to my condition now.

I feel like I couldn't catch up my own pace already.
I am rushing to do many things within a short period.

However, I need to endure for another 2 weeks plus for my term break.

I'm so afraid that I can't wait.
Work is piling up.
Desperately need a break.

Previously, I know when and how to relax myself but not now.
What had happened to me?
Mind corruption.

I am so tired!!!

='(

All about ALLY!

2008-11-26T00:11:00.001+08:00

I think I am going crazy.

ARRGHS!

I am a stubborn person.
I am a serious person.
But
I am a cheerful person.

I share jokes, listen to jokes but don't joke often.
I care a lot about dining etiquette.

I hate sharing everything that concerns hygiene.
I hate to be dependent.
I hate friends calling me by my full name.

Don't talk to me when I look moody. Most probably I will reply a lousy attitude.
Don't talk to me when I am concentrating. I will ignore you.
Don't touch any parts of me. I need sense of security.

♥

I love my family.
I love my girlfriends.
I love my friends.

I've got 2 new love, aiai(naughty) and a little of maya (look so fierce).

感动

2008-11-16T20:03:00.003+08:00

Thank you, Burger.
For the dinner which was cooked by you.
It was very tasty.
I'm so touch. Really. =)

Fly away~

2008-11-14T15:38:00.001+08:00

Arrghs! I don like my bl0g skin!
is like… arrghs!
I just cant find a satisfied skin and I cant make a good skin myself!

Hmmm… don’t know since when my house became so quiet. So quiet than before. My brother and I hadn’t spoken to each other for almost 2 months and I don’t know what happened. Every week when I visit my grandparents alone, they would definitely ask “your brother lehh?” I can only tell them lies. I don’t want them to know. Neither my dad want nor me. My brother will blow up further. But how many lies can I tell? I have no more lies to tell them already. I feel so guilty.

Where are the usual smiles?
Where is our laughter?
What goes wrong 2 months ago?
Why things turned out like this?

Hmmm…………………. =’(

my 45th friday of 2008 post

2008-11-08T02:27:00.003+08:00

It has been a hectic week. Projects are coming up, time is getting lesser and my kongfu panda is coming his way to find me already!

Hmmm… and I’m worried too.

My dearest girlfriend,
Speedy recovery ok?! All my happiness lies on your hands. Hahaa. Joking. Please take care of yourself. We will always be there for you! We are just a call away. Call us and we will become your superwomen to rescue you! hahaha. Stupid. Don’t eat too much unhealthy food. Drink more plain water!!! Told you how many times! Chomp chomp waiting for you. Punggol nasi lemark waiting for you. Egg tou-hua waiting for you. Many many good food waiting to serve to you! Faster recover and we can fly there…!
Muackkkkk! <3

Hmmm… to someone out there...
Sorry, I know you are suffering.
I am not any better.
Just wait until the day we promised.
Either you get to know the reason for this promise or a rejection.

Learn to cherish before you lose them

LUCKLESS ALLY...

2008-10-31T00:19:00.007+08:00

Life… sigh.

ALLY GOT A LUCKLESS ROMANCE.
ALLY GOT A LUCKLESS LIFE.
ALLY IS LUCKLESS FOR EVERYTHING…

Ally… oh Ally… your life is a joke.
Ally… oh Ally… your life is a drama.
Ally… oh Ally… I don’t like your life now.

When can Ally get better? Become lucky?
Ally doesn’t like number 3…

You, please don’t find trouble for me anymore.
You, can you stay away from me?
You, can you don’t lie anymore?
You, can you live better without me?
You, can you don’t find me anymore?
You, don’t make me cry anymore.
You, don’t make my life tough.
You, please… let me go………………

You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you You you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you…………………………….!

So many of you!!!
troublesSs, please go off!
Shoo! Shoo! Shoo!
My life doesn’t welcome you.

my 44th SUNDAY in 2008

2008-10-27T01:56:00.002+08:00

It was bored in the day time but it went sooooo happening in the night.

Ting, eli, ger, ting’s sis and me brought aiai and maya for a walk around ger’s house. Hahaa. Usual, I afraid of maya but I not scared of aiai anymore. Hahaha. Maybe maya too big le. Too bad. Small dogs are preferred.

We saw a well-trained husky. Wahh… the husky is super obedient! She even went for several competition lahh! The owner taught ger how to bring up a husky and train them. Hahaa. MAYA JIA YOU! YOU CAN DO IT! =) hahaha.

Hmmm… I’m kind of in love with dogs now. =X

Anyway, after that my dad fetches me for supper. It had been about 10 years we last had our supper together outside. I thought it was perfect at first but after our supper, things turn out so badly.

SINGAPORE, I LOVE YOU!

My daddy got a FINE for illegal parking. What the… omg. The place don’t even have a CARPARK, where and how all the car owners park their car?! Dad and I spent less than $10 in the foodcourt and we need to feed the govt $100…!

After collected so many $100, please build a big carpark nearby. We’ll greatly appreciate your effortssssss.

Got to go.
Bye.

moooooooooooddddd XD

2008-10-24T22:43:00.003+08:00

Hmmm… I’m not been blogging quite some time. But no worry, I will still blog. Hahaa.

Many things happening around me ever since the school vacation started until now.
People leaving…
People entering…

Everyone is changing. Everyone life is changing every second every minute. Tick-tac… tick-tac… tick-tac… Tick-tac… time is moving… we are breathing… breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out… everyone speed is so fast… people walking on the streets… cars are speeding… leaves on trees are swaying… wind is blowing… birds are flying place to place to find new shelters… clouds are moving away for the rain… and now, is autumn. In Singapore is raining season… I also in semester 2 already… time flies… I’m back in carefree life too.

It’s going to be end of October; there goes ¾ of my memories in 2008…

你的勇气在哪里？

2008-10-18T21:19:00.011+08:00

I have yet to post our memories.
I have yet to talk about our happiness.
I have yet to enjoy the love from you.
I have yet to talk heart to heart with you.
I have yet to love you till I die.
I have yet to hug you tight.
I have yet to hold your hands tight.
I have yet to go zoo with you.
I have yet to go Genting with you.
I have yet to go Italy with you.
I have yet to fulfill my promise to you.
I have yet to take care of you when you are sick.
I have yet to hear all truth from you.
I have yet to wear our ring.
I have yet to receive my repaired handphone strip.
. . . . . . . . . . etc.
We have yet to fulfill our plans......

No matter how much efforts I put in, you are going to return me in this way… through your *someone* return me this kind of treatment.

Though I felt being abandoned but I will not fall this time.

I will not fall.

Not fall

Though the return I gotten was horribly an insult and terribly disappointed.

I WILL NOT FALL SO EASILY!

I will show that I’m not the lousy girl she saw in her eyes.

I never look down on you before.
If I ever look down on you, I already left you long ago.
I will definitely wait if you are in NS.
If I won’t wait, I won’t be with you.
I never regret getting a joker boyfriend.
If I ever regret, similarly, I already left.

How much pain you brought to me I pulled it through and determined to stay with you. But you gave up everything you have on hand just because of some comments by *someone* then, you choose to get out.

歌曲：勇气
歌手：梁静茹

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

Hmmm… no matter what I say or do now doesn’t matter to you now.
我的爱已经没有意义了
我。。。会把那份不被肯定的爱放在我心里的最深处，永远都不把它解开。

Lastly, I want to tell you here is…
Everything from me to you is real.
25th April 2008, that phrase, I said it once to you only if you still remember and it’s impossible to hear from me again.

Goodbye my almost lover.

2008-10-15T21:26:00.005+08:00

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